once again. after the promise. tried to meet today, bt he got sick, and did not work out. my heart can't take it already i message him back "maybe it's nt meant to be. i don't want to meet you again. i don't want to feel that pain in my chest. i very very tired."
i feel that i have lost my confidence in meeting him again and again. decided to cancel my birthday celebration with him on my birthday, i afraid that the same thing will happen again and i will be left alone on my birthday.
i nv did celebrate my birthday with my frens and all on the actual day, this year is the first yr where i feel like celebrating it.. the funny thing is, why is the birthday gal have to plan her day, when she wants to get surprise by him. . i think i giving too much in this relationship already, i feel like giving up. SUPER TIRED, after today's message which i hoping that i will not receive from him. and it did came into my hp again.
my tears totally break down as last night i told myself, "we will finally meeting each other on weekends." bt disappointment came to me again. I told myself "It's over, I have done my part, Maybe it's really not meant to be, I should not have agreed to start this relationship."
my frens all ask me to give up this relationship, bt i decided to trust him once again. he broked it by hurting me again and again causing me to build a invisible wall growing inside of me.
you may nv see me again, i would runaway from you if i have the chance. afraid of getting hurt again and again by you
